In life we get the impression that we have so much control. We make plans and set goals at a young age that shape our futures. Go to this school…get this job…buy this house. We think we have control over our bodies. Want to lose weight? Diet and exercise. Want muscle definition? Work out. Want a new hair style? Pick one and go for it. And then something like cancer comes in and tries to take over every aspect of your life and you have no say so whatsoever. Your body betrays you. You are deteriorating. Suddenly, those goals you set for 5 years from now are simply just to be alive. To make it.
It may seem like cancer has taken away any control you might have over your life, but the truth is…you do still have a choice. You choose how you are going to handle this situation. Yes, it might knock you down but you have the choice to get back up and keep fighting. You are strong, you are courageous, you are fearfully and wonderfully made. There are no impossibilities. The same God that made this entire universe took the time to make YOU. He adores YOU. You are not just another statistic. He’s going to help you get through this in one way or another, but YOU have to decide. He wants you to choose to love Him, to accept Him. He will not force you.
You cannot go through something such as cancer unchanged. You do have a say so in how it changes you. You can be bitter. Or you can be blessed. Spending the rest of my days being blessed sounds a lot better than spending them being bitter, don't you agree?
So I have big plans. My goals from the beginning of this were to grow old with my husband and watch my children grow up. I’m focusing on that and believing that will be given to me. God has brought me so far since January. Just 5 short months ago, when I looked in the mirror, I saw death. Now, I see nothing but LIFE. I see a promise. I choose to believe in that promise. I’m going to make it.