We talked to Dr. Saylors about my scan today! All my tumors, nodules, everything has continued to decrease in size. Some of them are too small to even be measured! The tumors on my liver were measuring 4 cm. They are now around 1 cm! My lymph nodes were the size of ping pong balls and are now the size of lima beans. Praise God!
We have come to the point where the harm from chemo outweighs the benefit. I am so very tired and I'm tired all the time. I want to feel good again. I will finish this cycle (a cycle for me is carboplatin + taxol one week, taxol only the next week, then a week off) and maybe one more cycle. Then I will stop chemo. I will be checked regularly and I will go back on the chemo if the tumors grow.
I am happy with this decision. Yes, I still have cancer. But I am alive, and I will live on! This is not to say that God will not take this cancer from my body this instant! I still believe God will heal me. My idea of a miracle was that the tumors would disappear, but THIS is a miracle too. I will elaborate on this in a future blog, there is a lot I'd like to say this subject. My most fervent prayer was that I would watch my children grow up, and I will! I am thankful! I will continue to walk by faith; even more so while I am not taking treatment. God is so good! My Father truly has his hands over me. He is my shield, my anchor, my refuge. He is everything! Though I am weak, I lean into His strength and His grace and I am whole. I am swaddled in His love!
Thank you all for your prayers and support!! By His stripes, I am healed.