I had chemo round 9 on Thursday. God has blessed this chemo that runs through my veins. I'm not afraid of it, and I'm not afraid of cancer. My God is bigger than all of this. I can't believe it's almost scan time again. Just three more weeks!
Tuesday, I took a nice long walk, just me and my dog Bella and the woods. I spent some time being quiet, and just listening to the breeze through the trees. Then I prayed and prayed, asking for healing. Suddenly, I stopped! I started thanking my Father because the work is already done. I believe these next scans will confirm that. I do not believe there is any cancer left in my body!
So I have been thinking about how it must feel to get that news. I can't even imagine how overjoyed we will be! I'm trying to understand the term "remission" because I know that is the word that will be used. So I've been researching cured vs. remission and I found an article that really helps me embrace that word instead of letting fear linger there in the cracks. If I believe I am healed while in remission=I am cured! If I believe that it won't come back=I am CURED.
I have been so blessed in this journey, even through the suffering! I thank God for my suffering; I learned so much in those dark days. I thank God for the pain; I learned how strong I am with God's grace. And I truly appreciate what it means to feel GOOD. Of course life will never go back to the way it was before. There will always be scans, etc. I am forever changed by this! I mean that in the best possible way. God is so good! Life is so good! Count your blessings.
Here's that article I was talking about: